i would tell you what i'm really thinking. what's running through my head, what i really feel. but it won't change anything. i will still be stuck in the place i am now. it's not like you'd pour your heart out and tell me everything i wished you'd say. that shit only happens in movies, written in the most flawless scripts, with the most beautiful actors. but we're not beautiful actors, and our lives are not scripted, and you will never yell and scream and beg to have me back because that's just unrealistic. so why waste words that will get me nowhere. i'll stay in this place, forgetting you like it's easy, and you'll stay oblivious, and life will go on.
for someone so beautiful why do feel like a lost cause?
thank you, sadly however, beauty doesn’t solve all problems. not necessarily a lot cause either, just lost within myself. life is all about searching and finding out who we are and where we belong though. and that’s really beautiful.
i'm starting to pack to go back to mississauga. winter break was too long. i love my family, but i hate this town. maybe one day i'll enjoy being here again, but for now, it can stay in my memories. won't see this place again till may, not even for my birthday.
i’ll probably make a playlist about this and post it later. angst and emotion and love and loss. yep.